After being released, I made all these plans, I put together links, researched resources, wrote articles and had everything laid out when I changed my mind. I was embarrassed about being arrested, convicted and going to prison. I was forced to relocate to a new area of the country and I did not want everyone to know I was a convicted felon. I was still trying to reconcile what had transpired; the loss of freedom, starting over somewhere new, a pariah with all my old acquaintances and most importantly, the impact my actions and prison time had on my children and family. o at first I made the worst decision I could have, I buried my head in the sand.